To those ttc.. please read..

I’m being honest here. I’m 21 years old, I’ve been engaged since September. We started “trying” in August but really tried the last two months. It has been hard. I haven’t had AF show up, I’m due in 2-3days and I decided today that it’s okay. I won’t be due in September. All of my symptoms have disappeared that I took as pregnancy. I’m sure I will get AF soon. But for those who are going through the same this goes out to you.

If you are trying for your first baby, you will get there. Whether it be next month or months from now. The world has its plan for you.

If you’re trying for your rainbow baby, my heart is with you and your loss. I am hoping for your future to be bright and full of the children you so desire.

If you’re trying for your child to have siblings, I really hope for you that it happens.

Life is so short and we aren’t guaranteed everything easily. When I was younger I was taught the second sperm gets inside you that you would end up pregnant automatically. I always hoped I wouldn’t be a teen mom. No shame to those who were. But I met the love of my life at 18. We lived with my parents for a year and a half. We are on our second apartment together. We have great jobs that pay us well. We want to have a little bundle of joy who makes us so tired. We want a big family that we can support correctly.

I know it’s so so hard reading negative tests or reading positives to be back at square one. But everything happens for a reason. Whether you’re religious or not, someone is watching over you and everything is going the way it should be. It’ll happen when you least expect it.

As for now, enjoy your foods. Keep taking your prenatals. Keep tracking your cycles. Keep having great sex. But most important, take care of you. Realize it takes 6-12months for healthy couples to build a family. Realize everything happens for a reason.

To those who are trying their hardest right now, my heart is with you. I believe in you. I believe you will get that happy ever after. My messages are open for those who want to rant about symptoms. My messages are open for those who feel hopeless.

As for now, September 2021 probably won’t be my month, however October 2021 can be. And I’m looking forward to another month of great food, great sex, and a new year.

2021 will be the year we all conceive. I believe in everyone!