So a while back I posted about being a birth mom. And well she was born and I saw her and held her before I gave her to her new parents. both of her dads were so happy when I handed them the baby but then i told them to please leave my room. I miss her so much I feel like I just got beat within an inch of my life the physical pain hurts so much. Her dad's sent me a picture of her because it's an open adoption but I have opted not to visit till I am able to hold myself together. I low key want her back but at the same time I know I cant and I know she will be better off where she is. It's so hard. This hurts so much