So i just logged onto this account after over a yr or so of not being on here. I went thru my old post and comments and i was really happy back then. I didnt post alot, but when i did, it was about something cute my SO did or about our amazing sex life (or lack there of sometimes lol) or just how i was so lucky to have him. That all changed 8-9-19 after he was in a wreck and didnt make it. NOTHING has been the same, it still feels like yesterday. It has been the hardest thing to deal with. I hit rock bottom and almost lost everything. im finally gettin back on my feet, but it still isnt real. I still have moments where i forget, then it hits me fresh again. I love him so much, i would have never left him. He is the most amazing, chivalrous, sweet, sexy, handsome, gentleman i have ever met. Healthiest and the most passionate relationship ive had. He is def one of a kind.......i just want to wake up and it b the longest most horrible nightmare.......i still just want him back. He was def a life line that connected so many ppl........having a moment, outside of my kids, its been so lonely without him 😥