When I had my first son in July 2019 I had an amazing support system during my labour and afterwards. But I felt like if baby and I weren't sleeping, that we always had visitors and I never had him. I was sad and cried a lot, I didn't want to share my son, I didn't want to leave the house, I didn't want visitors when I got home. My partner and I argued because I didn't want visitors and to share him at that time and he wanted to show our son off understandably. We lived with my parents at the time and my mom came to me with concerns that I had PPD. I remember thinking my family was better off without me but I wasn't suicidal I just didn't feel good enough for them. It took my partner a while to understand (he was so happy and wanted to show our son off and didn't understand what was wrong with me). So I reached out to his mom. I explained how I felt, I explained that I was thankful, but I also let her know that I just need things to be on my terms for a while until I feel comfortable. I have an amazing mother in law who supported me. And a year later before conceiving baby #2 I wrote a lengthy letter to my husband letting him truly know how I was feeling with baby blues after our son was born. I wanted him to completely understand what baby blues is and what it looks like so we're a better team if it happens with baby #2. And it went well, it was hard to describe my lowest after having the most amazing thing happen. I'm just scared for it to happen again. I know what I need this time and I've voiced it to my husband. I'm just wondering if anyone else has experience ld this as well and if it happened more than once. To anyone who has experienced baby blues or PPD or any hard post partum/pregnancy journey, my heart is with you and I hope you have the support and love that you need ❤ for reference I experienced baby blues for 2 weeks. And I'm sure everyone has heard of all these terms but just incase, baby blues is temporary depression that lasts about 2 weeks after baby is born, it can come out of nowhere.