Since December my husband & I have started working with a fertility dr.. we’ve gone through pretty much all the standard testing by now. I’ve done so much blood work, ultrasounds, and just had the HSG test- all to have no answers yet. Everything seems to look “good” so I don’t understand why it’s been 4 years now of trying.

Until today we’ve been led to believe we have treatment coverage thru my husband’s job provided by Progyny. Hence, why we’ve been doing all this initial testing... just to find out today they (Progyny) works directly w our insurance & therefore do not provide ANY coverage until after our $4000 deductible/$6000 out-of-pocket has already been met. So here we’ve been given all this false & led to believe we would be able to pursue <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">fertility treatment</a>, just to find out we can’t afford it because we’ll have to pay like $4000 before they even start to help and $6000 before they help 100%.

I’m just devastated. I feel like I just went through all this testing for nothing & like we’ve just circled right back to the beginning. I feel like maybe it’s just not meant for me. Like I should just give it up because it’s never going to happen. And I feel so guilty because I know my husband wants children and I can’t give that to him either. I don’t have anyone in my life who I can talk to who understands how everything just feels so meaningless. All I ever wanted to be was a mom... I never had any other path i was passionate about. But I don’t think that’s ever going to happen so idk what I’m even good for