okay so i growing up i didn’t have a lot of friends because i was shy. as i got older i was able to shed some of my shyness but unfortunately i’m still a very introverted and reserved person. i’ve always struggled with my anxiety even as a little kid, and as i entered my teen years my mental health got worse. for me, unfortunately that meant that i would go through some serious low points in my life alone. i developed a thinking pattern, that until recently i just considered that many people might not do this. when i’m upset about something, i’ll literally talk myself through it. here’s an example:

*anxious at work*

i wonder if they think i’m stupid

“why would they think you’re stupid”

well i keep making mistakes

“girl everyone makes mistakes love don’t punish yourself for that”

yeah but-

“no buts i thought we said we weren’t gonna talk to ourself like this anymore”

i know that it’s me. i know that it’s literally my thoughts. i guess i’ve just found a way to comfort myself as most people never knew how to or i didn’t have anyone. i just like to pretend that it’s someone else talking to me. for example when i feel alone i’ll say to myself “you’re not alone i’m always with you”

anyway i’m not terribly creased about it lmao but i was just wondering if anyone else did the same thing 😛