I want a abortion. I’m almost 14weeks pregnant. My babydaddy was a mistake, he doesn’t wanna help me with the baby at all and I don’t feel that I’m ready, it happened the first time, I’m not ready to be a mom , I’ve been getting ready and trying my hardest to get prepared and there he is holding me back, he hasn’t helped me with anything. And what’s holding me back even more is I’m in love with someone else. I was with my ex for 2years and we started getting on and off last year and I started a new job and met my babydaddy, when I told my ex about it he was hurt and trust me I was hurt even more because i loved him and I never though I could hurt him how he have hurt me in the past, I love him so much and the bond that we have it’s nothing like my babydaddy, you might ask “aren’t you the one who ruined the relationship” no my ex was very toxic and lied a lot to me. I know I shouldn’t want my ex but I still love him, he means the absolute world to me and I don’t know what I would do without him. I seen him yesterday and the way that we clicked I was so happy and didn’t have a care in the world while I was with him, I told him all about the situation and he understood me and he told me I should have seen how he was from the start, I didn’t sadly. I’m not asking for anyone to feel sorry for me, I just feel as if I made a huge mistake by trying to get my mind off my ex and messed with my babydaddy. I’m stuck between “I know I can give my child the world” but also “I don’t wanna have my child without their father” it’s so hard on me I sit here and cry everyday because I think about what life could have been if I never got pregnant, I just want my life back