I love him and it hurts so much to leave, but I know I have to. He’s my first love and first everything and we’ve been on and off for years. He made me happy most times, but had done some questionable stuff (talking to women behind my back who he knew I wasn’t comfortable with, lying, etc). I found naked pictures on his phone in a saved folder of random girls. If feels like he doesn’t respect me or even cares about what I’m feeling. It’s hard for me to think about the future and if there even is one for me, but I can only ever see myself having any kind of future with him. I’ve given him too many chances to start over and each time it hurts more and more. I have no one in my life, but him. What do I do? Take him back after a million times of him treating me less than what I deserve or leave him and never look back? Every guy I’ve ever met has let me down so I don’t think I will ever even try to get into a relationship after this one. Please I’m so lost someone help me and understand from both angles