I’ve been in love with him since I was 14! Back in middle school, that’s when I knew my feelings would stay forever 💖😨.

I really don’t remember what got me so interested him in the first place 🤩 but I do remember once I had caught feels for him! So again, been in love since I was 14 years old and at that time I was in 8th grade.... probably wondering what girl at that age knows what love is 🤷🏾‍♀️ and let me tell you. I honestly didn’t know if it was love or just some crush. But now I know in fact that I am in love.

Back then, every time i would see him I would get happy and when I look at him, I began to daydream and when I see his smile my heart would just melt 🥰🥰🥰. At 14 i want to call it puppy love because it happens when we’re young 😫 but was it or is it really puppy love if I still had strong feelings for him for 4 years straight! Since 8th grade graduation to high school graduation.... but here’s the catch, we didn’t go to the same high school. My feelings for him never went away when I was in high school. In fact, they simply just got stronger by every minute of every year. Even when I dated other people, it really never went away. That probably sounds confusing 🤦🏽‍♂️🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏽 But through everything we’ve been friends since then and still are now 👌🏽!

And now I know that I love him because I can be myself around him. I can be a complete weirdo and he won’t care cause he’ll be a weirdo too😂. I can make him laugh without even trying so hard, he does the same thing to me 🥰. He smiles at me when I look at him and I can’t stop staring at him when he do because 😍😍😍🥰💓💓💓💓 it’s just powerful. And we have intellectual conversations or we’ll any conversation really and it’s never boring or dry. Plus I’m always messing with him too 😂😂 but doing that since middle school and it never changed 😁😁😁. We also have similar taste in music and we’ll just vibe to it. But during high school, when I hear that he’s dating someone else my heart would just drop or I’ll have heart palpitations 😭. And I always hide it because he’s happy with the girl he’s with and I want that for him. To be happy, even it’s not with me. Like I would sacrifice my own feelings for his. I’d his happiness before my own, because if wasn’t dating me, I want him to be happy with another girl 😔💯.

Only one thing, I’m 19 years old in college and we broke up last week 😭😭😭😭🥺 we dated for 3 months but the relationship had to end because he couldn’t balance a relationship and work/family issues. So he had to choose one so he wants to stay single until everything works out. When we broke up I cried all last week until Friday, because it hit me. I’m still his friend even though I want to his girlfriend too but no matter where we go or what’s going to happen, we’re still here for each other and we’ll always find a way back to each other 😊 and I noticed that about us. Our relationship happened to fast for us to be together and the timing just wasn’t right so I HAVE to let him go so he can do what he has to do. I don’t want to but if I don’t that’s me being selfish and I don’t want to be that way, because it’s not fair for myself nor is it fair to him 💯

I believe in the right person wrong time. But only time would tell if it’s right and when we’ll find our way back to each other, but then again I also believe that if the timing isn’t right, then that person wasn’t made for you 😢. I want to have hope but then again I can’t because you can never know if it’s really meant to be 😫👌🏽. All i do know is that I’m always going to love him even if we’re with two different people. Plus I’m still his friend at the end of the day, no matter how much we both LOVE each other, because he has the same feelings for me since we graduated 8th grade 😩😓😦💖💔. So that’s my story. I’m in love my friend and he’s also my ex boyfriend 😣😢🥺💔