This is weighing on me. It’s been weighing on me for a long time. Ever since he left me life it has been like a wound that opens frequently it’s been 6-7 months since he blocked me from his life. I still miss him and it hurts. We met during quarantine and developed a close friendship. It was something I never experienced it was like if I wanted to talk to someone he was always there. He didn’t know how to handle me sometimes but he would really try. He lied about 2 things and said and did things that would offend me at times. He would always apologize and talk to me about it though. At first he did not want to date me and was opposed to the idea but he decided that we should. I was going through abuse with my parents and he didn’t know how to help me but he was learning and he was there for me. My grandmother died and it was like something stabbed me and everything he did in the past just came back up. It ended because I didn’t know how to handle the emotions I was feeling. It was a terrible break up. He was so cold to me but still responded every time I talked to him. He blocked me but I would still be able to talk to him. We apologized to each other. I thought we were moving on a better path. Then he asked to be friends with benefits and we were talking about everything I even gave into the thought.but quickly realized it was not right. I wanted his friendship he was open to it to but then came to a quick decision that he would cut off all communication of me at first I was okay with it. And then I started to feel the hurt. I want him in my life and I don’t know if I should act on it. I’ve been praying about it. Today I found out he unblocked me on everything and I don’t know if I should talk to him.