I want to try...but I'm so alone

Hi Glow Family!

My husband and I officially decided to try for our first. We have been married a few years, and it never "happened" without protection. But also never really tried. Right now he is taking his sperm analysis into the lab....I was super stoked and our talk the whole way here....

Well now that I'm alone and waiting in the truck, it kind of hit me....I will be so alone in this. My husband is fantastic and no doubt will be an amazing partner!

But I have no family. Literally none. (He doesn't either) I have no friends. Of course the few on Facebook that we chat now and then but that is it. I'm newer to the city we live in now and I have tried SO hard to connect with people and nothing. So really it is just us, everyday. Every holiday, every situation.

It breaks my heart because my whole life I've seen huge weddings, big baby showers,birthday parties and on and on. I have never had that....now with the idea of a baby, while exciting, makes me sad. My heart drop....

I want the baby shower, I want the friends, I want the gender reveal....I want a hospital full of oohs and awes. But the reality is...I won't have that.

I don't understand why its this way. I'm an incredibly social person and the best friend anyone could ever want. So to be so alone...it hurts alot.

I guess the idea of being just me 24/7 then just me and a baby isn't the life I really hoped for.

I just needed to vent this somehow...