Rejected

I constantly feel overwhelming rejection. I have zero friends. There are some I can hit up and never see. It’s literally been years since I’ve hung out with anyone on my own. I have a fiancé and we’ll be getting married in spring but he doesn’t want to live with me until then. Doesn’t even stay over, only has twice since I moved out a year ago. My mom is the only family in the state and she’s been dealing a lot with her own stuff so she’s busy and doesn’t do a whole lot with me anymore. Job didn’t want me when everything locked down and I haven’t needed to get a job until now and I’m very under qualified for anything tolerable. I can’t even find a stranger to move in and help with my rent. No one else sees me or checks up on me. I know a lot of people are feeling alone right now so it’s expected but I’ve felt this way since before and it’s been a year now of being on my own trying to change things. None of it worked out though so I’m left with a place I can barely afford, no friends, a partner who’s not ready, and myself who I’m getting rather sick of. Yes this is just me complaining and feeling sad for myself for once. Can someone just tell me they relate and it gets easier or something