My dad got late stage colon cancer in tx. I left Ca went to tx . Took care of him for 7 months. Fed, washed, and buried him.

In the meantime I lost my job and my fell behind with school. Which is okay for him.

Came back to CA. I made the mistake of sharing with my mom (they were divorced). I said something along the lines of , I might have some ptsd cause I can still smell his dying body and the death in general really hurt me. Can’t explain what I am trying to say well.)

Especially because I had no one. Just some hospice people the last 3 days.

She replied, “ooo come on you never really loved him anyway”

That shocked me and depressed me. I am still really hurt about this response.

How do I prove my love more than this to another human? I would do it a million times over.

Just want to share with someone who isn’t family..