I’ve been seeing this guy for 5 months now & it’s been a little rocky lately because he struggles deeply with depression and he also got into a bad motorcycle accident.

He messaged me a month or so ago while I was sleeping apologising for being so distant and that he has so much love for me. When I saw him days later he said he was having a breakdown and was telling himself that he hates everyone, but then he realised he doesn’t me. Then he told me he loves me. And I really felt it but with depression means there are really high highs, happy mediums, and really low lows. Particularly since he hasn’t been taking his anti-depressants properly this last month. He ran out completely 4 days ago and he’s working on getting to the doctors, but he’s going through it. He had a breakdown yesterday, crying on the bedroom floor. He said he rang his doctor in the morning and she told him she would sort out his script and when he rang back later she said she forgot and to call her the next day. He asked a close friend of his where he goes in the hospital when he feels like offing himself (the friend works there) and the friend just ignored it. He’s very angry, and generally he can be an aggressive person (not to me or any woman, he grew up w/ DV so much so he got a pay out because of the traumas it’s caused him) but now he wants to fight his friends because he feels they’re not there for him and all look down on him. He told me he is evil and that I should stop loving him.

I saw him later because he wanted to go see a friend of his and needed a lift and he was already at a family friends place and I was at my sisters across the road so I did that. He went back to that family friends place and after an hour or two he just opened my message and didn’t reply. I don’t know if he went home or no but I know he was active and probably talking to a couple people at least. I messaged just saying goodnight but it’s nearly 10am and I haven’t heard from him yet. He’d usually be up by now. I don’t think he’s hurt himself just based on that he was with a family friend & his Dad, and that he had been active. Generally I trust him but he’s in such a confused state right now so I’m just scared he’s with another girl. Or he just wanted to disconnect from socials. I really don’t know. I don’t know if that sounds bad of me but I’m in a spin trying to battle my own insecurities & the wonder of if he is okay or where he is. When do you think it is okay to call and check on him, if at all?