So my blood test results showed today that my baby boy has a 75% chance of having downs. I was told at 16 weeks that they could not see his nasal bone during his scan and he had a calcium deposit in his heart. But last week in my in-depth ultrasound scan (18 weeks) the high risk dr and ultrasound tech did not seem concerned about either of the two soft markers they even reassured me that they see the calcium deposit in ultrasounds all the time and he also said baby had a nasal bone although it was small. The dr felt confident that he would not have it based off his ultrasound but now my blood test is showing other wise. He gave me the option to do the amnio and told me if I wanted to terminate, I’d have to do it ASAP. I honestly thought about it and the more I did, the more heart broken I felt. I thought, what if I did terminate and he didn’t even have it? I could not cope and I could not decide what to do. And then it hit me... I thought about how much I already love this baby and how much his dad and his brothers already love him. He moves all the time like a normal active baby and I can’t even imagine just putting that to a stop. So I’ve decided to not get the amnio and continue with my pregnancy. I feel in my gut that if he does have downs, maybe it won’t be so severe? Maybe it will be just the same as having a baby without downs. The uncertainty scared me at first, but i feel confident that we will be okay.