Okay so just to start I'm almost 18 and dating a 50 year old. And before people say it's illegal. Where I live it is legal bc the age of consent is 16. We have been together for over a year and have a 6 month old daughter together(which was sort of an accident) since we've been together he has always used mental and verbal abuse to hurt me during a fight instead of violence because he's made it clear that he's never hit a women and would never start. He would say things In the beginning such as get an abortion I never wanted it even though we both agreed that if I got pregnant he would be super happy about it. And talked about how he wouldn't get fixed if I wanted kids because he didn't want to take that away from me so he didn't. He would use very hurtful things to get in my head and hurt me. Even if it was a small petty fight. The things he would say were terrible. And I'm not saying I didn't say anything as retaliation because nobodys perfect bit I like to believe it wasn't even half as bad as what he's said. He used to just take off when we would fight bc he couldn't be around me or whatever. He even took off to another womens house and spent the night with his two kids( he has to little daughters before me that live with us) and didn't tell me until he came back that's where he went and that women is someone I don't trust him with and he used to have a thing with her. He made it clear in the beginning that he has cheated on women he's been with before. And I'm glad he was honest about that but I try to see the good in people. He said that last time he cheated was with the girl he used to be with who the little girls mother Is. He would then promise that he wouldn't leave but still would. He would also throw things if he got super angry about something in our fight, like cups or whatever was in hand. He even took all of my things out of our room and threw them into our nursery(before the baby was born) and destroyed her room and it took me forever to clean it up, he did that twice. He's told me to move out that he doesn't care if I left. That he'd be fine without me and so on. That biggest thing tho is even with him saying he'd never hurt me, the other day we got into a fight about how we only watch his shows at night and I have to wait until he's sleeping if I want to watch my shows. So it wasn't a super big deal of a fight. He also always calls me names like cunt and shut and so on. He went into the kitchen to get away from me. He was on the floor in the bottom cupboards and I threw a baby bottle into the sink but it actually landed on the window seal. It was no where near him buy he freaked out and said I threw it at him which wasn't my intentions and I would of course felt bad if it did. I went over to the fridge which is in front of the sink or across or whatever and he grabbed the bottle and turned around with it very angry and jumped at me I guess like he jumped toward me like he was going to hit me with it but didn't. Anx I lost my mind. I've never felt so scared in my life, after being abused as a kid that was not okay. He then did it again when I was putting the bottle in the microwave he was beside me putting pans away. And I nudged him to get into the microwave because our baby was very unhappy and needed the bottle now. Amd he turns to me with a pan in his hands and jumps at me again with with intent to hit me but didn't. I freaked ok and right then and there said it was over. I took our daughter went to our room and started packing. He came down while I was in the middle of putting our baby to sleep and was yelling and trying to say more crap and justify what he did as okay, and I kept telling him that I'm trying to put our daughter to sleep and I would talk after because she was crying and he was screaming and I didn't want her to get even more upset let alone myself. After I got her to sleep I continued to pack and think about someone here we could go away from him. He kept coming down and trying to say what I did was worse than what he did. I don't agree. I ended up sleeping in my daughtrrs nursery that night because I could just leave then. Then next day we had plans to go up to our trailer. He was just going to go and then persisted on asking me to come so we could talk and if I did leave we would be on okay terms. Somehow I ended up agreeing and going. We didn't talk at all about anything the whole weekend. We had sex, even though I didn't really want too. When we came home he assumed we were together again which I never fully Said. But I don't know what to do.