Please don't be mean.

So I recently found out that i am 4 months pregnant and on first hospital visit i was misdiagnosed and advised that it would be best for me to have a c-section. This was something that i was absolutely fine with especially cause they said it was safer for the baby. As for me, ive always been terrified of vaginal birth. The fact it changes after (my own insecurities as well), the tears, the ring of fire, the pain, the amount of black women being ignored and dying during childbirth, im just terrified! So when i was told i would be safer with a c-section to be honest a part of me was relieved. Now I've just been told that actually I'm okay and safe to have a vaginal birth and everyone around me is happy and cheering me on but deep down im terrified, im scared. Worse off when i first started having sex years ago, i was so tight that it just would even go in, took me time to enjoy sex now a whole baby coming out, its a lot!! Since my c-section date was already booked, i actually still have the option. So please those who have had either vaginal or c-section, tell me all. Be honest, the good and the bad. The unexpected as well.