Baby blues

Hello, I just found out that I will be having a baby boy. It’s not that I’m not happy but I kinda feel down and that I’m not really connected to my baby,

for the past 19 weeks I’ve been hoping that it will be a girl. I know that it’s not great to think or feel this way but I was wondering if there were any other mommas in a similar situation and if it gets better? Do you get that same connection back?