Very scared

Kirsty

Hello. I’m about 4-5 weeks pregnant, and very worried. I went to the toilet last night and when I wiped there was a small blood clot 😭 like the size of a grain of rice. I’m having no cramps and there hasn’t been any more blood since. I’ve been a mess all day, couldn’t work (I work as a cleaner which is stressing me out due to the constant moving and lifting the mop bucket and Hoover). I haven’t even met a midwife yet because I only put the form in Monday, they usually wait till about 10 weeks to see you. I had a silent miscarriage last year and I’m terrified it’s happening again! I rang the midwife as I kept their numbers, they told me to ring the Early Pregnancy ward, who told me I’d been given the wrong information - a GP or midwife needed to refer me - so I rang my GP, who told me that the EP Ward had given me the wrong information - I was hysterical crying to them this time. So they told me to try a different hospital 😩😭 Ive chosen to go to a different hospital this time (I have a little boy) because of all the bad memories I had but this other one “lied and gave me no help” when I needed them today so I’m a state wondering where to even go to have my check ups and the baby (if everything is ok!?) rang the other hospital and I spoke to the same woman who scanned me last year and told me I’d had a silent miscarriage...so you can imagine that phonecall. She was no help, told me they wouldn’t scan me as it made no difference if I had started to miscarry or I miscarry after the scan itself...so I’m sat here desperately trying not to move to make sure my body’s relaxed but my mind is manic 😭😭😭 has anyone had a tiny blood clot and had their baby anyway or is happy and healthy right now carrying their baby(s)? I’m miserable and can’t stop worrying, no one seems to care what’s happened 😞 x