I'm grateful that God gave me 3 wonderful babies to love on and hold every night. My youngest is 5 months old and I found out I was pregnant a month and a half ago with baby #4 and I was excited but also sad and felt guilty (I wasn't ready for another baby right now) and I just felt off. I just fell depressed and started slacking in school (I'm in nursing school) and I got covid and was sick for a week. Im just stressed with school, working, and trying to maintain my kids. And then about 4-5 days ago, I started cramping every few hours and didn't think anything of it. 2 nights ago, I was cramping consistently after having sex and this has never happened before. Yesterday morning I woke up bleeding and cramping and I instantly called my DH to tell him im having a miscarriage and then I called my mom and she talked me thru the process. I called my OB to make an appt and the receptionist told me to go the ER. I just said I'll wait and pass the baby naturally at home and go to the ER if I'm still having bad cramps and heavy bleeding. I just feel bad because I had a miscarriage and I want another baby so bad but with all the stress and things I have going on now, God just knew it wasn't the right time and I need some support or guidance through this whole process and I want to get my mind back on track so I can hold it together for my babies and myself.