I’m wondering if my husband and I are the only two individuals that are having a bit of guilt about not being overly excited about being pregnant.

We got married in October and as I will be 40 this year, made the decision to come off BC in Oct after our wedding and plan to “not plan”. We have both been indifferent to whether or not we have kids but also both said we wanted to try. As I will be 40 this year we also acknowledged that we’d have to try sooner than later as neither of us were open to <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>. I am not against it at all but for us, who were indifferent, said we would not go <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> if we could not conceive on our own.

Our goal was to just let it happen until April 2021. If we didn’t get pregnant by April we would then actually plan on making it happen (<a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android">tracking ovulation</a> and making sure to have sex during those times, etc.). Needless to say, I started a new job in mid January and found out that morning I was pregnant via HPT. I didn’t tell my husband until yesterday as I wanted to make sure everything was fine and until it was confirmed by my OB. So from the moment I found out, I was nervous, scared, worried about the changes my body would go through, the chances of complications at my age, the changes having a baby have on your marriage and all of the other things that come with it, sadly, excitement was probably the last thing I felt. When I told him, he had the same exact reaction. Do get me wrong, we are excited and grateful that we were able to conceive without trying but have all of these other emotions that seem primary. After speaking about it last night, we both feel really guilty about not having the typical overly joyed reaction.

Has anyone else felt like this?