This time 2 years ago I was going to take my life. I had a plan & actually made my initial cut. But when it started heavily bleeding I decided I couldn’t do that to my parents. I took myself to get stitched up. & I’m here to tell the story 2 years later...

I wish I could say that I’m glad I didn’t do it.. I wish I had some inspirational story that goes something along the lines of “it gets better”... but unfortunately I don’t. Things have indeed actually only gotten worse, which I didn’t even think was possible.

This isn’t a suicide note or a post for sympathy! But rather a post that could maybe help someone..

Yes, it’s true. I didn’t take my life & things got worse but I can’t help but think maybe just maybe things are tough now so they can be so amazingly great later... & I’m not sure I want to risk losing the opportunity of life being amazing just because I’ve spent most of my life so depressed.

Realistically I’m only 24, & yes I’ve been depressed since around the age or 10! But! That’s only 14 years of my life... if things change by the time I’m 25 i could have 25 amazing years to follow and only be 50

I guess my point is, right now we live in a generation that is so sad, depressed, anxious, tied to our phones! But we neglect to remember we truly are not that old! I mean really even if you are 50 by the time you’re 51 you could likely spend the next 20ish years amazingly happy and only be about 70!!

So, yes. This time last year I wanted to take my life.. & yes things have gotten worse! BUT! Maybe just maybe the next 25 years will be amazing..

Suicide hotline Canada: 833-456-4566

Suicide hotline USA: 1-800-273-8255

If you are outside of Canada or the USA there are plenty of great websites like, 7 cups of tea! Or you can Google your countries hotline..

Also, remember: someone in this world cares if you’re here! & if you truly think no one does.. just know that I do ❤️ you’re amazing, perfect, and strong, & I believe in you..