Depressed 😞

I’ve had 3 miscarriages and it’s really heartbreaking tbh. I’m slowly giving up.. all my friends are pregnant an I’m happy for them but at the same time I’m really lost, confused, & depressed.. I don’t kno what eles to do I’m trying so hard to just move on from them and forget about it all but it’s hard when I have 6 close friends that are all pregnant an havin heathy baby’s .. 😔💔I just want my rainbow baby an I hope to god one day my time will come 🤧 I’m only 18 too I don’t understand 😭 I’ve been tested for a lot an everything came back normal .. what eles could be wrong w me??!! 😞