So me and my husband got together in March of 2018. He was a virgin but had experienced a lot of four play! So we get together and sleep together. We are happy and in love we build our lives from the ground up and he adopts my kids. We get pregnant and we lose our daughter in the second trimester. Three weeks after giving birth I get pregnant again give birth to our beautiful baby girl and fell ill for awhile. When to see the doctor to find out I have ebv which never had and hashimotos plus blood disorder so as the year goes on I take time to grief our daughter and it still stings! And raise our other one plus my 3. So as time goes on feels like he stops investing in our relationship even when I tell him something is wrong we need to fix it multiple times he says no because he finds nothing wrong. I tend to my families needs clean a big ass house and tend to 4 kids plus school full time, pay bills,grocery shop and what ever else. He feels that since he works 4 days he shouldn’t have to do a lot. I get run down don’t even like looking at myself in the mirror and can barley get out of bed from the lack of energy. So I made a video that didn’t show nothing and had some sexy music to it and sent it to my guy friend asking him if I was attractive as I felt that way and my man acted like that due to him only wanting any kind of contact was sex. He replied and said he’s a idiot and needs to step up his game.well he comes home and uses my phone and ends up going through to see that and immediately accused me of cheating even though I didn’t hide anything and wasn’t trying to get with said person. Told him why I did it.since then our relationship hasn’t been the same even before I did that he was short and bad temper.well we agreed to work on it multiple talks since then things seem to have gotten out of hand. He blames me for a lot like we was planning a vacation to my home town he said he didn’t feel comfortable with me hanging out with my friends that was girls by my self cause I could run into someone I was with. Then I was trying to make him a sexy video and made multiples till I liked one and deleted the rest well didn’t know it went to a deleted file and he borrowed my phone to watched them and I guess what I did have for him wasn’t good enough because he went to the deleted one and watch them to jack off and told me I got upset because he knew how I felt about the video as why I deleted it.since getting diagnosed with hash’s it makes your sex drive almost nonexistent and he still gets laid not not everyday. And he don’t watch porn any more because he says it feels wrong that he wants my help and hence why I made the vids for him. Well my final straw was he had sex and even when it was uncomfortable I still didn’t tap out and he came 7 times. Two days later the baby found my toy and he put it in a nightstand draw left open where she could still get it so I moved it and put it up and when I got out of the shower he was so so mad and I asked him what was wrong he said go look in your draw and he left me a petty note saying (did you have fun?) and said ok ms I don’t have a sex drive why did you move the toy. He pretty much blamed me for why he was made and treating me the way he has been. Then I explained to him he pleases me and that I didn’t use it just put it up . He then called me a liar and I told him why would I use it when I’m still hurting down there from the other night.we go to bed and he tries to wake me up with kissing me and the toy so I pushed him away and told him to leave me alone because I’m so disgusted with his actions and has ruined how I see myself and sex.