What do I do. Cheating and beating me up

I’m so hurt and I feel so shit in myself, I feel worthless, not good enough, ugly, stupid everything.

I’ve been with my boyfriend for 2 years

For the majority of the relationship I haven’t been allowed social media (which tbh I know is bad but I don’t really mind as I didn’t have socials before meeting him anyway)

So I said to him if I can’t have it why can you 😕????

Anyway he deleted it (so I thought)

everything was good for a while.

Until I’ve been getting alerts saying he’s downloading Instagram and messaging his ex and all these other girls. (His phone is linked to mine as it’s was my old phone and he decided he couldn’t be bothered to change it, so I get all notifications... stupid boy)

I would always confront him about it and it was always the same act, screaming at me saying it wasn’t him, me being a MUG I would force myself to believe him as I am so inlove with him and moved on even know I got insecure every time and every time he would do it I would get more insecure and protective.

I started not to trust him.

So I would get the guts to break up with him and he wouldn’t let me leave the house !!!!

Took all my belongings so I couldn’t call anyone or go anywhere, locked the doors everything !

Anyway fast forwards to last night I found out he downloaded tiktok this time and watched all his exs videos, he typed twerking (bussitdownchallange) he typed sl*ts, everyone he knows just (girls), anything like that he typed. Even one of his mates sisters he would perv on.

And all of this was the day I acc was allowed to go home cuz he was feeling “tired and frustrated”

But get the notification through that night at 1am in the morning.

So I go back to collect my things and it kicked off.

It’s just made me feel so low and down words can’t describe, I don’t think I can trust him at all anymore.

The thing is, I went to leave last night and he beat me black and blue, but he admitted it was him for a change after hours of arguing.

I know I need to leave good and proper but it’s so hard to get out of a relationship with a controlling man who makes me feel worthless.

But everyday I still love him !

And idk what to do.