Hey everyone!

I'm currently 9 weeks 4 days with baby number 2 💕

My little one will be 5 by the time bub is due (all being well of course, can't shake the feeling that something terrible is going to happen)

Just wanting to engage with this community more because I'm struggling a little with sickness, feeling lonely and unsupported, and general insanity due to the slooooow passing of time 😭

My partner is good, but historically highly not invested in this sort of thing until crunch time, so I haven't exactly been looked after heaps so far.

My existing baby is my best friend, so interested and excited about #2, but of course to a point given that he's only 4 😂

I have a couple of great friends who check in on me and are excited for me but obviously have their own lives. My two closest friends are still quite young and not so into baby chat unfortunately.

We're not telling family for a long time yet, mainly to put off meddling and the accompanying stress.

But I am still lucky to have people who care, I guess just feeling a little like I'm on my own for 95% of this journey.

I've had pretty constant nausea for 3 weeks, mild headaches and body aches and cramps, but generally feeling bloated, sick and uncomfortable most of the time. First pregnancy was a breeze so struggling to cope with symptoms this time around.

And also just absolutely dying of both fear and boredom. Fear of a late or missed miscarriage, and boredom from the way the days have dragged on impossibly long since I found out I was finally pregnant!

How do you deal with this constant state of what feels like physical and mental distress??!

Have just started back up at uni with a full time load so hopefully the days will start to fly by but not yet..

Sorry for the essay. Just needed to vent a little and hopefully make some connections with some of you who may be feeling the same way I am! ✨