Anxiety and disappointment

jbrh

My husband and I are trying for baby #1.

I’ve been trying since December of 2019 but never REALLY tracked ovulation though.

December of 2020, I decided to start tracking since nothing happened in the past year.

I am currently 10 dpo.

I used preseed once or twice, think I had a peak (although the number was kind of low)

I am trying something new this cycle -the stork fertility pill.

I have been testing early for pregnancy (not a good ideal) which doesn’t help but to get you down seeing all the negative tests after negative tests.

These past few days, I have been feeling all kinds of stuff that I don’t normally feel. Yet I feel like my period is coming. :/

I’ve been having nausea time to time, woke up in the middle of the night feeling nauseous.

One day my nose was bleeding, and HEADACHE.. was CONSTANT. 🤯😖I had mild cramp right after ovulation and yesterday I thought I was catching a flu or something. Felt hot around my neck, but I didn’t have any fever.

Last two three pregnancy test I’ve done (Amazon cheap ones), all came back clean negative.

I am regular so I’ll find out in few days but

This waiting really kills me. 😔

I don’t have sore boob, only once I felt pain on the side, but not now. No cm, no cravings, no metallic taste, my sense to smell is normal.

High chance that I’m not pregnant.

Hard not to feel but all the doubts.

Just crazy to think that I’m feeling all these things and if I’m not pregnant, these are all pms symptoms. 🙄

I don’t feel comfortable talking to friends about these things because they all said pregnancy worked on their first try. :::happy for them but that makes me think I’m broken so I just don’t tell them I’m even trying to conceive.

Just thought I’d share on here what I’m feeling and what my journey is like at this moment.

I hope your journey isn’t as stressful as mine. 🙏