I have this friend who I have known for years. We met in 10th grade and we're 30 now. I've known her a long time. At first we were great friends. I would stay the night at her house, we had a lot of mutual friends- some she introduced me to. My cousin/best friend moved to her area and started going to the same school as her and became really good friends. She introduced me to a boyfriend that summer and we dated for almost a year. I admit, I was horrible and I cheated on him. We broke up and they slept together afterwards. I didn't say anything because I did hurt him and we weren't together when the slept together so I let it go. She also invited my cousin and I to her birthday that year. When we got there, my ex was there and then she told me my cousin could stay but I had to leave. I left in tears.

Fast forward to a few years later- we're 21. My ex and I had already talked about things and were on good terms. He forgave me, we started dating other people and we both remained friends with her. I start working at this cosmetics boutique and photography studio as an apprentice. I had known the owner for years so she let me help out because I wanted to be a make up artist. My friend as it turns out worked there too. We had fun, we worked together and got close again. It was great. Then she moved to Florida and we lost touch sort of. She remained in contact with my BFF the whole time.

Fast forward again to 2016 and my BFF is getting married. My BFF made HER the maid of honor which completely shattered me but I didn't say anything. She introduced my BFF to her husband and made it where they could see each other because at the time they met my BFF was under age and my aunt forbade them to be together. She would let her stay the night at her house and would sneak him over so they could see each other. I let her use my computer and phone then and got grounded for it too so they could talk.

A few months ago, she was in town and my BFF and a couple of other of our friends got together and went out for Korean BBQ. I thought everything was going great until we run into one of her old friends and she's introducing us. She said "this is (my BFF) she's been my best friend since high school and her Hubby. They have the sweetest love story and are expecting a baby soon. This is (our friends that are twins) they're my beautiful Caribbean queens. And this is Karinne, she's a baby mama to a little boy." I know it sounds so petty to be upset about that but like, I have known her longer than all of them and I'm just "a baby mama to a little boy." I thought we were on good terms. I thought we were fine. What I did was YEARS ago. I was a teenager and I'm not that person anymore. She's always talking about spreading love and light and she's always so bubbly and positive but when it comes to me, I'm just "eh, there she is." I don't feel love coming from her at all. I don't want to say anything because I feel like I might be overthinking but it has been bothering me for years! She's still in contact with my ex and I asked about them and she told me how they're doing and that they live in California and is a lawyer and has a wonderful partner. I told her to tell them I'm happy for them and that I said hi and she said that maybe mentioning me would trigger them. But the last I heard, we were on good terms we just hadn't talked since high school. Am I overthinking or does it really seem like she's holding some kind of animosity towards me for something?