Emotional

I feel as if something is wrong with me.... my first pregnancy had to have been the most challenging thing I ever been through I watched my father deteriorate from the loving father I knew to not knowing who I was and he died when I was 5 months pregnant... here we are almost 5 years later and I just found out I’m pregnant and I’m filled with sadness and fear I went through worse depression ever during and after my last pregnancy.... I should be happy bc babies are a blessing but I did it all alone last time and I’m so scared. Don’t ever wanna feel that way again