The journey after the loss 🌈

Hello ladies!!

I can't express to you fully the extreme happiness I feel joining you in this group. My last pregnancy I relied on my due date group and I loved every single one of them and their babies and even their losses.

Unfortunately my July baby passed away sleeping late November. I grieve for her every second and i miss her so much. Then, on Valentines day we experienced another tragic loss. My husband's oldest brother. It is painful, the amount of grief that has struck down on our family. I don't know what I believe in, but I hope my sweet baby Zoey and her uncle Zac are together now.

And guess what, they hand picked this baby for us. I never in a million years would imagine wanting to get pregnant only 7 months PP. But I am a good mother and my son deserves a sibling. He was such a good big brother. It is so rare, I hear, to get pregnant your first month of TTC. I didn't even get pregnant with Zoey until our 3rd cycle. Today I woke up and had a round ligament pain! I knew exactly what it was. I debated with myself to test. I took a test last Friday, very negative. I said I would wait until a month after I got my Nexplanon out, even if I was pregnant I would still be pregnant in 5 days. But then I thought, well I won't go back to sleep unless I know. So I test and I couldn't believe what I was seeing. It's POSITIVE!!!

I am shaking and crying. I bust into our bedroom, it's 6 am. I just say "nick". He gets out a couple "yeah?"s and I just tell him. Our miracle, our rainbow. They're here. I am so thankful. Thank you Zoey and Zac. I promise I will be the best mom I can for you two. Thank you for blessing me with this child. I love you both dearly.

And thank you guys for being along with me in this journey. Its not going to be easy, but with support I can do this. Because I haven't had a period since I had my BC removed they're going with that being LMP and we'll just do the normal dating scan around 10/11 weeks. Due November 18th, 2021. ❤