I'm having flashbacks of my childhood when I was four years old and five..

My mom used to hit me she would beat me with a belt tell me to watch TV or to go to sleep, play alone in my room.

My childhood consisted of my father getting drunk hitting my mom when he would go to work she would hit us or leave us in the house alone I remembered this at four because my brother started school at five and I stayed home it was scary I would watch whatever was on TV

At school kids would make fun of me and I didn't fit in all my life I've felt so lonely and broken. I don't know where to put these feelings.

My mom didn't want me to be born I've felt like a burden. It just sucks when your parents don't treat you right when they scream at you for asking If they can play with you for hitting you asking for food

It just hurts