Cervical Cancer

I’ve been diagnosed with cervical cancer. Having cancer is eh whatever. Stage 1b2. Having cancer doesn’t like upset me. Knowing I’m never going to be pregnant again does. We have 3 beautiful girls (13,7,1) we have always wanted 4. Be it 4 girls or 3 and 1 boy. And now that’s all gone. We don’t have the finances to do egg freezing, plus sergeancy. I’m struggling be time.. I get pissed off anytime someone says “so glad you caught it early” like yeah I take my health checkups seriously, but that doesn’t take away that we were not done having children in our own time.. and now we are being forced to be done..

Sorry ranting majorly. I know I’m lucky. Lucky to have caught it early. Lucky to have 3 beautiful girls. Lucky to have friends, family, husband who are all ready to bend over backwards to help me beat this.. but I feel empty, lost, sad...