Over it. Sahm edition

So I’ve stayed home to raise our daughter for the last 1.5 years. My husband has been a champ. We got behind on bills along the way before Covid so after wasn’t much fun either. Now that it’s tax season we can relax a little bit. Bills are caught up, I’m finally able to look for jobs again life seems good. So we got taxes back right? He paid bills, and wanted another means of transportation so he quickly decided to get a motorcycle after asking me (solely because he wanted me to be ok with it. He was getting it regardless). Which of course meant he needed bike pants and a new helmet. It’s irritating because we live in Missouri. The weather is all over the place all year making a bike not as reliable as we need it to be, especially if I’m going to be getting a job. Anyways the point of this post is to complain. Our taxes (almost 7,000) are going to bills, groceries, getting us by and all that good stuff. I asked when the stimulus comes if I could have my share since were caught up. He always avoids money questions and I end up forgetting about it. Mind you I haven’t asked for anything more than 20 dollars ever, I’m not some gold digging trophy wife. I worked my ass off before we got married and pregnant. I told my sister in law about all this, and she asked him about it one night when he stopped by after work.

Her: “are you going to give her the 1400 she deserves?”

My husband: “psh no I pay the bills”

When she told me that it broke my fucking heart. Here I am 22, stay at home mom, put my life on hold to do what was best for our daughter, breastfeeding for the last 18 months, haven’t slept more than 4 hours at a time since she was born, do 99 percent of the child bearing, I’ve had two short times in her life I’ve been out alone, not to mention the constant cooking, cleaning, and laundry. And this motherfucker has the audacity to say that since I don’t pay bills I don’t deserve my damn money? He doesn’t take me on dates, he doesn’t get my hair done, he doesn’t think about how I may need a damn break. I’m so fucking tired of hearing stay at home moms don’t do shit. I have worked my ass off for this family and my husband doesn’t even appreciate me. I’m not looking for people to tell me to leave him. I’m just furious. These last few weeks before I find a job I’m not doing a damn thing. Me and my booby babe will be in bed watching Netflix soaking up our time together while it lasts 🥰