Im so scared!

Angel

I think i may be screwed here. Im 42. I have a 24 year d, 22 year old and a 4 year old. I have 2 step kids 18 and 14. How am i supposed to

do this again. 😫😭 My last pregnancy was awful. I have lupus on top of my age making this a high risk pregnancy... im 5 weeks and 5 days according to Glow.