breakups

okay. so here it goes. i usually am the type who goes back to my ex over and over. until i finally tell myself “hey he’s legit toxic asf for you”. and i finally just snap into reality. but it doesn’t help that this guy and i built out figures together. he understood me emotionally and PHYSICALLY. let me tell you girls something. HE WAS GOOD IN BED. and that doesn’t come easy 😉. i’m serious tho. all jokes aside, he was the most physically and mentally attached i had ever been to someone. and now i’m scared to let anyone back in. it’s almost like i’m numb. like i’ve tried talking to other guys. and i’ve kissed someone here recently. and i FELT NOTHING. not a single spark. not even a little heart😿 down there. nothing. and i just feel like i’ll never get that feeling back. anyone else relate? pls let me know.