friends

i feel like i have no friends. i have anxiety and i just had a baby five weeks ago so my hormones are outrageous right now and i’m starting therapy for it but i feels like because my boyfriend is the only really “friend” that i have i push a lot of my anxiety onto him and its tearing us apart. I feel like a bad mom because i’m the reason she wouldn’t have a family if he left, which he’s been telling me he’s thinking about lately, and i feel like a terrible girlfriend and not worthy of love because i destroy my relationships. i just wish i had friends to talk to, or someone to talk to instead of dumping every single feeling on one person