I am not feeling very well right now. The morning started off okay but. I just want to stop work, curl up into a ball and cry. I can’t just take today off. But I just want to be alone in a room and cry myself into the best sleep and take a nap. Maybe when I wake up I’ll feel better. I don’t have an outlet right now this is my only one. I’m too embarrassed and ashamed to tell anyone I know so I’m just sitting with it on my own. I just feel so foolish. So stupid to believe I was somehow meant to have a whole week of happiness. That’s not real. Not in this world. I’m not okay.