If I was...

My 4 year relationship just ended because he was tired of being my only happiness he was tired of hearing how depressed I was how stressed I was even though I would never really say how I felt I was to much for him to handle he would just get mad at me when I expressed how my heart felt how my brain raced at night looking up at the ceiling in the dark,the one person I showed my heart to doesn’t want it any more but my body is what he wants the last minute “will you come over no one is home” “this has to be quick” oh honey with you it will be. I’m hurt I gave him all my support,my love,my time,but I would get back the cold shoulder why am I to available for him?why can’t he fight for us? that’s all I ask sure we have had great times together but if that really enough if all I feel is the wall between our love. if I was good enough for him would he still want me?