At 13 weeks I found out that our sweet little boy who we just announced to the world had many issues. Fluid behind his neck, an extreme heart defect, an omephacele and was showing signs of severe mental differences already. It was the worst day of my life. I was told me baby would most likely die in utero. We did more genetic testing and more scans and it came back edwards syndrome aka trisomy 18. We had begun to accept he wouldn’t be with us long and prepared our 3 year old.

At 15w6d my water broke. It was late so I went to the nearest hospital as we hadn’t made a plan for where I should go should I need emergency care yet. We thought we had some time. So they told me my water didn’t break but had no idea where all the fluid was coming from and sent me home. They were horrible to me and now looking back, I could have held my living son before he died if they had helped me 💔

I thankfully had an appointment with my high risk ob the next day so I waited and they knew immediately he had zero fluid and needed to be delivered very quickly and I was at risk for infection. I was allowed to go home and sleep and prepare for induction the next morning.

After a very painful process to get me to dilate I started bleeding a ton and they didn’t know where it was coming from but they believed my placenta was detaching and coming out in pieces.

At 1:23 pm my precious baby boy was delivered and he had already passed most likely due to his issues combined with a non functioning placenta and no fluid. We got to spend a few hours with him and the hospital made a memory box full of things. We found our after delivery he most likely also did not have functioning kidneys and he also had 2 severely clubbed feet 💔 but he was still beautiful and had the most perfect little nose 💙

Fly with angels my sweet boy 🦋👼🏻

Elliott Lee Breckenridge

“Eli” 04/16/2021