Overwhelmed and tired

I am 8 weeks and 1 day today and I have been to the hospital twice so far this pregnancy. I was recently diagnosed with hyperemesis gravidarum and have had the worst time these past few weeks. I can’t keep any food or water down, and had to take antibiotics for a UTI which had me in the hospital the first time because I was having cramps so painful I could not stand and thought I was having a miscarriage. They told me yesterday that the baby is fine, which is wonderful and I am grateful. I just feel like I can’t catch a break and this pregnancy is so hard on me already and all day I hear “Oh just wait, it gets worse!” like how is that supposed to help me? I just feel so defeated because I want to enjoy my pregnancy and I am so ashamed to say I hate being pregnant. I love my little nugget to death but I feel like I am falling apart. I only have four more weeks of the first trimester and that is the only thing getting me through the day. Does anyone have any words of advice to get me through this rough patch? I feel like a bad mom already for the rough time i’m having. I just want to hold my little one already