Ah shit

I've been in a relationship for a year and four months and all the time I'll think about him and realize how utterly smitten I am over this beautiful boy. His eyes are so beautiful and such a strange wonderful color. They're a grey-green with a hint of blue that shifts with light. His smile is always so cocky and his face literally lights up when he's happy. his eyebrows are so expressive too. And when he's upset or embarrassed is face gets really red and a little splotchy and I just want to hold him. He's kind and sensitive and gives the shittiest hugs sometimes but I absolutely live for them. I still get all nervous around him but my anxiety just goes away. He's so imperfect and I love it. He has an adorable mole on his Adams apple. He's just the right size for me to kiss him without having to jump up. And I like to joke that he's short but it's so fucking cute. Once someone pointed out a pimple he had and his face got all red but when I looked at him all I saw was the most beautiful person.

And I honestly don't even care if we stay together because he deserves to be happy, even if that doesn't include our relationship. I love him so fucking much it hurts sometimes. I want to kiss every imperfection and tell him how beautiful he is because words alone can't describe it. Ughhhhhh I can't wait to see him again and go on a date or do something with him. Preferably alone because pda makes me feel clingy...