Feeling a little down... need some encouragement

I was with my mom tonight and she’s been making stabs at me all night I don’t think she means anything by them but she said she didn’t put me through collage for 4 years to be working is a nursing home kitchen, (Which I pay for all my loans so I don’t see why she really cares). I really want to leave but I need the insurance now that I’m pregnant. Like Atleast I have a job thanks for making me feel like shit about it.

Then somebody asked how many kids I was planning on having and she just looked and said hopefully this is the last (I have had 5 but lost 2) so this will be my 3rd living child and I do plan on getting my tubes tied after this one bit for her to make that comment really hurt my feelings. Especially when she seems happy about my brother and his wife having their first and we are both due in November but mine isn’t as important because I already have kids and apparently not a “good enough” job

Sorry but I just needed to rant and bitch a little bit. These hormones have me wanting to cry and turn on bitch mode all at the same time. I guess I can’t tell anybody I’m close with due to it might get back to my mom and I don’t want to make her mad but it does kind of bother me!