sick & really really tired

hey firstly I just want to tell u that ur beautiful, and u should never ever think that ur ugly/fat/whatever ur eating disorder tells u u are!!!secondly, what u have is definitely an eating disorder. I am so proud of u for trying to get help, keep trying because it will be worth it. in the process of waiting for help, why don’t you speak to an online counsellor or helpline for eating disorders? im not sure which country you live in, but there will be one available online. starving yourself brings you nothing. it only makes u sad and exhausted. think about your future - i think it is so cute that u have found a husband who obviously cares about u a lot and loves you. what future plans do u two have? surely u want to healthy and happy so that u can achieve them, not this miserable person who hates themselves.don’t let the thoughts in ur head get the better of u. with the support of doctors, friends and family u will be able to be a happy person again. keep going, I am here for u xoxox