I’m curious do u think it’s wrong to celebrate Mother’s Day or expect a gift on Mother’s Day if you had an abortion?

Long story short I was pregnant and had plans on keeping the baby but my bf talked me into getting an abortion I was 12 weeks pregnant. Reason why I had a late abortion was because I had every intentions on keeping my baby. Me and my bf argued a lot over it. He would mentally and emotionally abuse me and say things like if I kept the baby he would leave me so I gave in which was the worst mistake of my life. This was 2 months ago. Now that Mother’s Day is coming up i feel horrible and wanted to do something for myself like go out for dinner. But I feel like as if I have the right to celebrate because I’m not a real mother. I also had a miscarriage 8 months before.