I don’t know how to explain it (vent)

I am turning 24 years old in a few months and graduating nursing school this spring. I’ve been seeing a few pregnancy announcements from people I went to highschool. I get jealous about it even because I do want to have a baby right now but I know it’s not the right time. I am in a relationship for almost two years with my bf and I would like to get married first and have a house to live in before having children. I am happy for them but I’m slightly jealous because it seems they have their shit together. Some people I went to school with even have bought a house and I am going back to live with my mom to save money and work as an RN in July after graduating. I have 40k loans to pay off and my lease is over that’s why I am moving out of Toronto (hella expensive) and live rent free with my mom. I feel like I am behind and they are ahead. I know it’s not a competition but i can’t help but to want to have a marriage, a home and create a family. I am currently on birth control but I have decided to stop taking it once I move out because i will not be seeing my bf as often when I move out. will be using condoms to prevent pregnancy.

No judgements 💕 just wanted to vent