Bleeding; 5-6 weeks pregnant

Hi there. Warning this is a long read but I could really use somebody right now that’s either been through this or knows what could be happening. I didn’t know where else to go or post this and I just really need some advice or reassurance or just something at this point as I feel so defeated.

On April 29th (a day before my period was supposed to start) I got a positive pregnancy test. I took the test as a joke not thinking I was pregnant and then there it was.

(Test I took that night)

I was shocked, scared but most of all excited at the thought of my 3 year old son finally being an amazing big brother to his sibling. So the next day I went to have it confirmed by a doctor which it was and then they booked my first ultrasound for June 1st. I was beyond excited for this new chapter but also nervous to have 2 kids under 25. I also have a history of miscarriages as this pregnancy would mark my 6th. So naturally I had the worry in the back of my head but I tried to not be consumed by it. I went about my life taking care of my son and going to work.

Then two days ago on May 11th after a rough 7 hour shift of housekeeping I came home and had a bath. Now this bath wasn’t too hot as I wanted to soak for a while so I made sure it wasn’t too hot, maybe lukewarm at that. I was in the bath from about 5pm to 6pm, when I got out liquid came out of my vagina which I thought was just water from the bath. But I noticed it had a colour to it, so I went and wiped my vagina to see if I was right about what I saw and this is what I saw.

(Had to take screenshot of camera roll, wouldn’t let me just choose it)

I instantly panicked and called my grandmother. She said to call 811, see what they say and go from there. I did just that and they told me to go to the emergency room to be on the safe side due to my history. Now I spent 2 and half hours at that hospital just to have my blood taken. No ultrasound, no vaginal exam, nothing. They booked an ultrasound for yesterday but that was about it. I went to said ultrasound the next day but before I went when I got up and went to the washroom this is what I found when I wiped and I went into panic mode cause it was no longer just pink spotting.

I tried to remain calm and just proceed to my ultrasound as scheduled which the only thing the tech could tell me was that I’m not having an etopic pregnancy as the gestational sac is where it should be in my uterus but that’s all she could tell me. So I left that ultrasound with even more questions then when I went in but at least I knew it wasn’t an ectopic pregnancy which I was so grateful for. I went about my day as normal as possible even though this was all my mind could be possibly consumed with. At around 6pm last night I went washroom and when I stood up to wipe I noticed something in the toilet.

And this when I actually wiped

It seems that the blood only ever comes out when I go pee and wipe myself. I’ve been wearing a panty liner this entire time and nothing ever actually comes out onto it. Only when I wipe and go pee.

Fast forward to today, May 13th (which I’m still bleeding but not enough to even drip into the liner) I got a call from my clinic regarding my ultrasound and the nurse told me that it is still too early to tell anything. Cause of when my last period was (April 3rd) I’m around 5-6 weeks pregnant so cause of that if I was to be miscarrying again they wouldn’t be able to tell right now based off an ultrasound. They said they can’t tell whether I’m miscarrying or it’s a healthy pregnancy. They are keeping my original ultrasound for June 1st just to see if anything has changed by then.

I go in for a second set of blood work today to find out whether my HCG levels have gone up or down since I went to emergency a couple nights ago but even the results from that night aren’t in yet. All the doctors and nurses are being super nice and understanding but the wait to know what is going on is killing me as I’m sure anyone in my position would feel the same.

Has anyone ever experienced this and go on to have a healthy pregnancy or is this was I think it is? I have minimal cramping and abdominal pain but my pregnancy symptoms aren’t as strong as they were but I know symptoms can come and go and that every pregnancy is different. Any advice, feedback, similar experiences would be greatly appreciated as I just feel so alone right now and helpless right now..

For reference this is a pregnancy test I took today to see if the line was getting lighter or not and it looks good but I know that taking these aren’t always a sure sign of anything if you’re bleeding. Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this through and share anything helpful or even just some kind words, it all means the world to me ❤️