Anyone else?

I can't shake the feeling of missing being pregnant...but not for the reasons that everyone else usually has. Mine is because I went in for my last midwife appointment at 38 wks 4 days and for my preadmissions check up for my csection that was scheduled for 3 days time but ended up not leaving the hospital and having my baby that night due to having contractions and baby going into stress. I was in hospital for 3 days and leaving the day that I was supposed to be going in to have him. And for some weird reason, I was so sad to leave the hospital because I was all organised and prepared in my mind to be having bub on the Friday, it just felt like my pregnancy was cut short even more and I just didn't feel ready to leave, even though I was over being pregnant, I'm just sad because I know I won't be going through pregnancy again for at least another 4 or 5 years because this last pregnancy was so rough on my body...not to mention my toddler who hardly spoke to me for the first 3 weeks. My little one is 4 weeks on Tuesday and I thought this feeling would have left by now, but I still get it. 😪🤨 its really annoying me ha.