Talk me into an epidural! Or talk me out of it

I have had two 100% drug free births and they SUCKED. I had ptsd after my first from the pain alone and it took a lot of therapy to be able to have my second baby. I SWORE I was done having babies because I truly can't handle the birth.. but here I am with a suprise 3rd baby. I'm already so stressed about giving birth I want to vomit and I'm only 6 weeks.

BUT and it's a big but. I absolutely love that the second the baby comes out it's done. There's no iv, no catheter to remove, the recovery time is next to nothing. Like I'm literally up and moving about normally with in minutes of delivering the placenta. With my last baby I was allowed to go home 6 hours after I had her. With 2 kids at home thats a huge perk.

I'm really considering an epidural but they TERRIFY me. My mom had a really bad one that didn't work and left her with life long back problems (of course this was 26 years ago). Everyone I know still gets some type of back pain from it years later. I hear the recovery time is long and you're more likely to tear. I truly don't know what to do 😭 you would think 3rd time around I'd be a pro.