Working on Myself

Me and my ex boyfriend of 2 years decided to break up because he was going through some things and we had a short talk saying we both trying to get ourselves together and he wouldn’t have time to be a true boyfriend. We still talk on a weekly basis and I’m just focusing on myself and really trying to improve mentally, physically, and emotionally. He always ask me what I’m doing and I do feel like I miss him and we both still love each other. I get mad that at the fact that we haven’t seen each other and he keep saying when he is available. I don’t know what’s going on in his head and I don’t wanna be the one to apply effort but I feel like I shouldn’t be mad at all.

I do wanna go to therapy for myself including dealing with attachment issues. I haven’t truly learned how to be on my own and right now I love it. I wanna just see him for once and talk to him. I kinda feel like I’m stuck on a relationship mending back together or the though of us. I haven’t thought of all the possibilities and I feel like I’m not being realistic with myself.