Emotional Day

Feeling really crappy today, all I want to do is cry. I’m swarmed with feelings of gender disappointment even though it’s been over a month and I haven’t been sad about it lately. Also emotional over the thought of my boyfriend missing the birth of our second son just like he missed the first one. Unfortunately, we live far from family so he will have to stay with our son until my mom can come and watch him. The thought of still living in our tiny one bedroom apartment until we can afford to move somewhere bigger with two kids is also stressing me out. Ugh I just want to stop crying and clear my mind.